Posted December 9, 2011 at 9:54am
best.25th.birthday.gift.ever.
TWENTY-FIVE REASONS WHY I LOVE YOU(In no particular order)
25. You never fail to give help to someone who needs it. Shobana recently said, “Swapna would give the last dollar she had to me” and I don’t doubt it for a second. Whether it is listening to Eisha’a ridiculous boy problems, or trying to help Usman with his abundance of issues, or just helping me with 8th grade Algebra, you truly give so much of yourself to the people you meet. Hence why you won the 6th grade citizenship award.
24. You can booty dance like no other. While we are the only ones you baysharam booty dance around, this is a secret treasure that one day a man will be very pleased by.
23. You pretend to be so graceful(and you are when it comes to dancing) but you always spill stuff on yourself! I laugh so much when this happens because you make that cute little “oops” smile and then try to politely tap away the food particlage. muahaha.
22. You taught me to hug people with sincerity. I admit. I sucked. I really didn’t know how to give a good hug. Now however, I hear the words “you are a good hugger” all the time. Asma even tells me that I used to suck but something change. Alhamdullilah you let me practice with you!
21. You made me all those little cardboard cut-out playing cards when we were kids. Like “appley” and “beary” and “carroty.” There was liek a gajillion and when I think back I realize like even back then you did so much for me. You knew that I loved the little googly eyes and got so happy seeing cute things and so you made me a box FILLED with them. Yay.
20. In addition to the cards, you always figured out ways for us to have fun. Way back in the day Mummy and Apa did whatever they could for us, but we didn’t necessarily have the coolest toys all the time. However, with your imagination we played with those cards, we had comic-strip contests(where I was the judge..remember “Osama bin fartin’?) and we played cashier, baby hand, and you used to stick me on your legs and make me fly…that brings me to …#..
19. You made it so I never really realized that we weren’t the most well off people in the world. You always tried to protect me from the scary things in life while you yourself took on all the burden. You had to be strong when no one else could be. I think I realize this the most when I think about how you freak out when you hear sounds. Shobana and I always get to say “oh thats nothing” because if it was a scary monster we could be safe with you. You on the other hand don’t get that privelege.
18. I love that I know how to do my makeup because of you. You got mad style early on in your life( though the eyebrows were sort of a trial and error thing) and you imparted your knowledge on me. I learned that glitter on your eyelids is ugly, but mascara and eyeliner=good.
17. You got a job as soon as you were 16 and started to help every one out. Even though I am a cheap ass fool you taught me to be more generous because you never think twice. You turned 16 and used your jewel pay check for every one else. I specifically remember you buying me a pair of these fuzzy dog pants, which have now migrated from me to mummy :-)
15. You are a great artist and no one really knows it. It sort of amazes me that people don’t realize how skilled you are. I’m sitting at my kitchen table right now looking at the two paintings of yours I have hung up and I just think. wow. I remember the very first time I realized you were truly amazing. We were at the art show your freshman or sophomore year of highschool and you stood next to your self portrait with that crazy double bun hair do and you looked EXACTLY like the drawing. I was flabbergasted.
14. You always did my hair for special events. The term ends this week and finals are next week and I realize that is a crazy hectic horrible scary anxiety filled time, but yet somehow you made time to come back home and do my hair for dances. You never complained, you just made me get combs, and brushes and bobby pins and pushed those suckers into my scalp so I could look like hot stuff at my dances.
13. You feed me well! I remember even back when we used to take the 6am bus to DGS you would buy breakfast for us to share. You would bake me cookies whenever I went to your apartment. Not to mention you’d pay for our yummy rice thai together. To this day you are one of the only people I can eat with and have wonderful times.
12. Sitting in the passenger seat of a car with you shobana, jams and windows open is a little taste of jannah. I think of all the crazy things that have happened in the car and I made me realize how much of it is like life, you always taking on the burden and steering us in the right direction and carrying the extra weight. I think of the crash of the kia and how that only happened because you woke up at crazy early hour to drive us to speech. I think of all the times I got to sleep in the passenger seat ignorant to what is around me while you had to stay up.
11. I love you because of all the times you fought for me to get what I wanted. You always advocated for me by telling mummy you would drive me to a friends house, or arguing on my behalf. I only got to do stuff because you broke rules first so that by the time it came to me rules were not as strict.
10. You had to do everything first and you managed it really well. Sometimes I feel like you get sad because you aren’t really sure what next step to take in life, but it’s totally okay because you’ve had to take a lot of blind steps through your life with no support what so ever. It’s hard being a first kid, but you are a first kid with foreign parents so things were 100% new for you and you didn’t have any one to help you.
9. You engage in Shobana and my bafoonery just because you love us. We both know that you and your ghettotastic aint natural so you do it for our sake. We love that it has rubbed off on you and love that you participate despite the fact that its clearly a bastardization of the English language.
7. You always edit my papers, personal statements etc. I realize now, as I help people with there personal statements that the only reason I am a somewhat okay writer is because you brought me down and built me back up. You told me I was wordy, and incoherent,and that I generally suck…which man that sounds mean BUT it helped me improve my writing in a way that my teachers never did.
6. You taught me really cool vocabulary. I know 1/50th of the vocabulary words as you do, but I love that you share your love of words with me, despite the fact that I say promagnatron and you say coiffure all bougie like. BTW I love that you say bougie now. Ooh I like even more that google accepts that as word. WOot! In any case, your love for words is inspiring and I am a big poser.
5. I love how you pretend to be all cool and badass but really read sappy books and watch greys anatomy and crazy chick flicks. It’s adorable because it shows that you’ve had to be strong all your life but deep down inside your this sappy silly swapna. Plus, you’ve encouraged my own watching of such ridiculousness which I feel has broadened my tastes…a wee bit.
4. You have a great taste in music and you share it with me. I am not going to admit this ever again but basically like 95% of my iTunes is music you have suggested to me and the other 5% is crap and bougie latino jams I pretend I listen to but are not really that in to. But shh..only on your birthday
3. You love coffee. Like really, truly and not in the fake “i’m pretending to be cool and elitist and all grown-up so i drink coffee” sort of way that I sometimes drink it. You bought me that happy trader joe’s coffee powder which I use ALL the time, and allow me to drink suggary yummy coffee while you pretend you are a hardass with your black coffee. I don’t buy it because I know you are not as black as you think you are, and rather are as sweet and delicious and my coffee.
2. You always got an awesome part in elementary school musicals. You were a damn good bailiff, not to mention the person that brought everyone together in the battle of the orchestra one or whatever the hell it is. In the same way you bring our family together and without you we are SAAADDDD. Except happy but sad. yay.
1. You love me. I know it. Even though sometimes you get angry, I know how much you love and care for me and I love you sooooooo much. Sometimes I get angry or act all maythavi thanam but at the end of the day I think you are a smart, beautiful, kind and wonderful human being that I will look up to forever. Sometimes I just think about how much I love you and it physical hurts. You are such an amazing human being and people like you don’t exist everywhere.. I love you more than you can possibly imagine. I only hope that one day you learn to love yourself as much as I love you.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY I LOVE YOU!
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Only If for a Night- Florence and the Machine ( Ceremonials, 2011)
Posted November 28, 2011 at 4:13am
The butterfly counts, not months, but moments and has time enough.
— Tagore
Posted November 28, 2011 at 4:10am
Posted November 27, 2011 at 3:49pm
She lay in her bedroom, an escape from the fumigation chamber she had turned the rest of her flat into. She had, no doubt, been attempting to douse her soul with the chemicals necessary to berid it of the vermin past. But no degree of carcinogen could create the exocytosis necessary to feel right. She lay in her bedroom and failed to find a single permutation of pillows and blankets to make it feel as if she wasn’t alone at that moment…Of course, morning would come, just as it always did, and the day would join her as her only sound-minded companion…
Posted November 27, 2011 at 3:48pm
It’s never the changes we want that change everything.
— Junot Diaz, The Brief Wondrous Life of Oscar Wao
Posted November 22, 2011 at 3:25pm
Aya Sofiya.
daha carpuz kesicektik.
— Turkish saying. Meaning: Don’t go. There’s still watermelon to cut.
I don’t have time. I don’t have time to think about how it happened. It is what it is.
— film: In Time
Posted November 19, 2011 at 11:52am
She would consider each day a miracle - which indeed it is, when you consider the number of unexpected things that could happen in each second of our fragile existences.
— Paolo Coelho (via roscoe-)
(Source: quote-book)
Optimism is a strategy for making a better future. Because unless you believe that the future can be better, you are unlikely to step up and take responsibility for making it so.
— Noam Chomsky (via quote-book)
